what am i doing

ugh i have no motivation for, like, school

except i guess there must be some tiny drop of motivation in there somewhere because i’m still getting A’s which doesn’t make sense to me because i feel like i don’t care anymore but like i just said i guess somehow i still do care but WHY?? the whole schooling system is soo utterly unsatisfactory it drives me mad but at least i have the opportunity to make an education because i am so god damn fortunate but that doesn’t make me like it any more because i am still frustrated everyday even though i should be appreciative which i am but like i just said that doesn’t make the system any better than it is because it is still so flawed

i just want to do something good in this beautiful world full of terrible things

  1. tobefinite posted this